All through our lives we find things that are the best for us, or so we think. When we were kids we though it was best for us to stay up later then our parents would let us. We thought that sugary cereals, candy, soda, and junk foods were the best choice of food.
As we grew we discovered that those things, however delicious, are best consumed in moderation. We learn that fruits and vegetables are better for our bodies and don’t make our stomachs ache. We learned that there is a better choice.
In our teenage years rock concerts, staying out all night, going to parties, and a popular high school status were the things that were best for us. We walked across a stage and received our high school diploma, we moved on. Our classmates went out into the world and we were left to ourselves. We began to understand that getting enough sleep, family time, and praise from people that are important to us is better for us. We learned that there is a better choice.
We fall in love. We become so happy, so enthralled, so very in love. Nothing can change our mind, nothing can shake the feelings, and nothing can take us from the euphoric high. Our hearts pound in rhythmic pleasure as we hold hands and our lips touch. It is what we all desire. We desire to be with that person more than anything.
I was in those shoes not too long ago. I thought I had found the woman I wanted to be with. We were going to get married. I thought I was in love, I thought I was sure, I thought that no matter what, we could work it out. I thought wrong. I was blinded by my own desires to see the reality of the situation. The drama, the madness, the sheer impossibility that was created by stubborn people was enough to wear us out.
She wasn’t strong enough to stand up for me, the person that she said she loved and wanted to be with. She could have overcome it but she didn’t. She was still a girl and not the woman I desired. As I look at it now I see how unhappy I would have been with her. She was not the best choice for me.
I know that there is a stronger woman out there. I know that there is a more driven woman out there. I know that there is a woman out there that will make me so much happier in every way. There is a woman that will be a much better choice.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
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Very well written. I am confident you will find that better choice.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad your heart is healing, I know your better choice will come soon enough, and then you'll think nothing could get better than that... and it can't. ;)
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ReplyDeleteWooohwhoooo! Of course...she is just busy taking care of something she (whoever she is) needs to take care of, and you the same...and then you will find each other and make BETTER sense of what is BEST for you both in your own world.
ReplyDeleteBessos!