A View Into My Thought Process

I know by the title alone this seems like it could be a scary prospect. It scares me to even think that I put my thinking process on cyber-paper. So read at your own risk. Remember I warned you. Honestly, I hope you enjoy.

My Thought Process

I have so many thoughts in my head that little can escape the tangled mess of numbers, rules and random facts. When a thought does escape it seems to take the form of a relayed dream from the night before, and almost never makes sense. “You were there, but it wasn’t you,” “I was running and there was this cliff and I fell,” “The pool was full of Jell-O and I only had ten seconds to eject but I couldn’t get my slippers off.” You know how dreams are.

Sometimes a thought comes and other thoughts hold on to it, like little red monkeys emerging from a blue barrel linked only by a millimeter grip and the pull of gravity. Almost always a random thought comes from nowhere causing the monkeys to fall clinking against the wood floor. Systematically, the thoughts are put back in the barrel and my mind begins re-linking them in a new pattern.

I don’t know why I haven’t been able to get thoughts out lately and words aren’t flowing as usual. It could be simply because my mind is a little preoccupied with several things. Some hold more importance then others, others seem to hold more attention, attention is in short supply, thus my problem.

I have the ball-and-chain of school gripping tighter around my ankle, not wanting to let me go in a few weeks. It is trying to drain me of all desire to do anything and everything. On the other hand I also have helium balloons tied to my wrist balancing out the pull so I guess I can’t complain.

It is a new and exciting time in my life with so much going on. Maybe that’s what it is, over stimulation and too much stimuli. I think that is a safe bet, not to mention more scientific. I think that it is diagnoses confirmed for my current state of mind.